Hi there, and welcome to my blog. This space is where I’ll be sharing my raw, personal experiences of navigating life after pregnancy. Becoming a mother has been one of the most challenging and life-altering experiences I’ve ever faced, and while many stories celebrate the joys of motherhood, mine is one of struggle, self-discovery, and resilience.
My Latest Posts
- Healing Hurts: Why Do I Miss Someone Who Hurt Me?I thought I was doing better, but now I’m not so sure. How long is this going to last? How long am I going to feel this way? I hated him. Or at least, I thought I did. So why do I miss him? Why do I wish he was still here when he hurtContinue reading “Healing Hurts: Why Do I Miss Someone Who Hurt Me?”
- 28 Days: A Battle Between Past and FutureLately, I’ve been getting a lot of support from the people around me. It’s comforting, but at the same time, it stings. Because no matter how much love surrounds me, I know that in just 28 days, everything changes again. Why did this have to happen in February, the shortest month of the year? ItContinue reading “28 Days: A Battle Between Past and Future”
- When Life Turns Upside Down: A Reflection on Heartbreak and StrengthLast Friday, my world shattered in a way I never saw coming. It started as an ordinary day—actually, better than ordinary. Work was amazing, one of the best days I’d had in a long time. I came home to my partner cooking dinner, and we had plans to watch a movie together. Everything felt… normal.Continue reading “When Life Turns Upside Down: A Reflection on Heartbreak and Strength”
- When Heartbreak Feels Like the EndYesterday, my partner broke up with me. Again. But this time, it feels different. It wasn’t the usual pattern—the one I’ve come to expect. Typically, he breaks up with me, says something mean, and we go days without speaking. Then, like clockwork, he comes home, finds me in bed, and snuggles up next to meContinue reading “When Heartbreak Feels Like the End”
- When Trying Feels Like Failing: My Journey Through Postpartum StrugglesThere are days when no matter how hard I try, it feels like it’s never enough. Today is one of those days. I’ve been fighting to create a better life for myself and my daughter, but every step I take seems to lead to criticism instead of encouragement. I’ve been applying for jobs closer toContinue reading “When Trying Feels Like Failing: My Journey Through Postpartum Struggles”
- When “Things Are Going Well” Feels Like a JinxI’ve come to realize something: I never want to say, “things are going well” again. Every time I do, it feels like I’m thrown ten steps back. It’s as if the universe hears those words and decides to test my resilience all over again. Right now, I’m in the middle of a whirlwind of emotions,Continue reading “When “Things Are Going Well” Feels Like a Jinx”
- Starting IOP: The First Step Toward HealingThis week, I began my journey in an Intensive Outpatient Program (IOP). It’s been only one day, but already I feel…strange. Being surrounded by people who are bravely sharing their struggles has left me questioning my own. Compared to the heart-wrenching stories I’ve heard, my problems feel small—insignificant, even. There’s a woman in my groupContinue reading “Starting IOP: The First Step Toward Healing”
- Why I’ve Been Quiet LatelyI haven’t been writing much lately, and honestly, it’s because I’ve been a mess. Life feels heavy right now. Some good things seem to be on the horizon—at least I hope so—but I’m still trying to navigate the storm I’m in. One big change is that I’m a step closer to leaving my relationship. It’sContinue reading “Why I’ve Been Quiet Lately”
- Navigating Mixed Emotions in a Relationship: My Current RealityToday was supposed to be a simple day. My partner was supposed to finish work at 2 PM, but as I write this, it’s 4:57 PM, and there’s no sign of him. On top of that, he blocked me as soon as he left the house and turned off his location. These actions, though familiar,Continue reading “Navigating Mixed Emotions in a Relationship: My Current Reality”
- Breaking Free: A Journey Towards HealingI’ve been stuck in a cycle for so long, it’s hard to know where it ends and I begin. I hate him more than I love him. That truth has been weighing on my chest like a boulder. The way he talks to me isn’t okay. He tells me I’ve driven him to this point,Continue reading “Breaking Free: A Journey Towards Healing”
The Fourth Trimester 