The past few days have been surprisingly good for me. You know how it goes—when things seem calm and peaceful, there’s that nagging fear that a mental breakdown might be lurking around the corner. I really hope that’s not the case this time. It’s been so refreshing to feel at peace and sleep better at night, even if just for a little while.
One thing I’ve been consistent with is the 10K step challenge. If you’ve ever tried it, you know it’s a bit of a rollercoaster. Some days, hitting 10,000 steps feels like a breeze—like I could keep going forever. Other days? It’s like I’m dragging my feet through quicksand, and those steps feel impossible to reach.
I’ve been at it for over a month now, and if I’m being honest, I haven’t noticed much of a difference yet. I’ve seen so many TikToks hyping up this challenge—how people feel amazing and shed tons of weight—but that hasn’t been my experience. Instead, I’m at the heaviest I’ve ever been, and it’s hard not to feel disgusted with myself.
Maybe that’s why I’ve been so down lately. Feeling uncomfortable in my own body seems to spill over into every other aspect of my life. But I’ve realized something important: if I want to improve my mental health, I need to make physical changes too. They go hand in hand.
So, for now, I’m sticking with it. Even on the tough days, I remind myself that change doesn’t happen overnight. Whether it’s 10K steps, better sleep, or simply getting through the day, every little effort counts. Maybe peace isn’t so much about perfection but about showing up for myself, one step at a time.
Here’s to hoping this journey leads me to a better place—inside and out. If you’ve been there, you’re not alone. We’ve got this.
The Fourth Trimester 